23.04.07
i wasn't ignoring you tt day. i had my reasons for not really wanting to talk, for drawing away. not just from you, if you haven't realised...but from the few of you i held most dear to my heart. it sounds selfish, but maybe it's from the many disappointments, i don't want to risk being hurt. don't ppl always say, the greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment..? m trying hard not to expect too much already, but things don't seem to change for the better. i wanted to explain things tt sunday. i wanted to say i was sorry for causing you to tink i was ignoring you. but you said you're tired of it. i was hoping you'd understand, and even if you didn't, at least forgive me. i fought back tears as you sent each sms filled with sarcasm i didn't expect, which you probably didn't mean to use as well. i didn't want things to turn out this way. i wasn't angry, i honestly wasn't and m not.
i was hoping you'd talk to me after a week. but you didn't that saturday. i was hoping you would on sunday, but you walked away each time i came near. i tried smiling at you today, but you wouldn't even look at me.
what i learnt at precept this evening was really apt. when i try to solve things on my own and things just don't seem to get better, i can only pray. likewise, since i've tried what i could for this friendship, and things still don't seem to get better, in fact...i tink i've made it worse...i'll just stop doing anything... and pray. maybe someday, you'll understand, just maybe. for now, i shall commit this into the hands of the One Whom i've always hoped would be Lord of our friendship...
i was hoping you'd talk to me after a week. but you didn't that saturday. i was hoping you would on sunday, but you walked away each time i came near. i tried smiling at you today, but you wouldn't even look at me.
what i learnt at precept this evening was really apt. when i try to solve things on my own and things just don't seem to get better, i can only pray. likewise, since i've tried what i could for this friendship, and things still don't seem to get better, in fact...i tink i've made it worse...i'll just stop doing anything... and pray. maybe someday, you'll understand, just maybe. for now, i shall commit this into the hands of the One Whom i've always hoped would be Lord of our friendship...
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2 Comments:
maybe it ll be easier to not expect but to accept?
and to be thankful for all that God has given us, evn though what we get from the circumstances ard us is short of what we had in mind?
u had ur reasons not to talk initially, perhaps they had their reasons for their behaviour too?
hope u'll feel better soon.
will keep u in prayers.
whatever's happening or whatever's troubling u or making u upset, just trust God on His promise given to us in romans 8:28 bah! May our good Lord be ur comforter.
*hugz*
hello gwyneth (:
thought i'd share a verse that hannah helped me find.
"Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ , the Father of all mercies, and the God of all comfort. Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God."
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
God knows you best. His friendship is perfect and He'll comfort you. (: will be praying for you. -hugs-
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